Motivation

This was originally going to be a post about the epic ending of Code Geass R2, but, well, I'm too grumpy to talk about that, so instead I'll talk about midterms and my motivational issues.  

Fun, I know.

ANYWAY, we got midterms today, and mine were not good at all.  I got comments from all my teachers like "Good Student, but lacks Motivation"  And, you know what?  I agree with them.  I really don't have any motivation to do things that don't interest me.  I mostly have good grades in the classes that I love (Even though I have a horrible grade in english right now.  Oops.) but, in classes I hate, I just can't find the motivation to do the work.  I mean, I work in class, but after the 45 minute period of doom is over, I don't feel a need to force myself to do the work for that class anymore.  It's kind of sad, but it's true.  

I feel bad about not being motivated, really I do.  I know that this year my grades actually count, and that if I fail a class everything is gonna go downhill, but... I don't know.  I tell myself to do the work, I think about what will happen if I don't put more effort into classes that don't interest me, but nothing seems to be working.  Right now, things have gotten worse, too.  *sighs* I guess it's mostly because people who are supposed to hate me, like me, and people who are supposed to like me, hate me.  So... yeah.

ANYWAY, I want to ask you people that may or may not be reading this... where do you get your motivation from?

Thanks.

Cookie

My Mommy lied to me when I was five... T_T

Okay, guys my mom is EVIL!  You see, she lied to me when I was five and I only just found out now!  How did she lie, you ask?

Well, before I tell you that, some background information is necessary.  You see, when I was about five I had a HUGE obsession with the movie Anastasia.  And, well, I had EVERYTHING Anastasia, or, at least, I THOUGHT I DID 'CAUSE MY MOMMY SAID I DID!  I had (And still have) shoes, bed sheets, figures, cups, a popcorn bucket, all the burger king figures, a bunch of plushies, huge dolls, and I have ALMOST all the figures.  The Keyword is ALMOST!  

You see, I a few minutes ago I popped in my old Anastasia soundtrack, and during a moment of nostalgia I got onto ebay to see how much my old stuff was worth and then I found out the horrible secret my Mommy kept from me for so long.  You see I discovered that.... I DON'T FREAKIN HAVE THE OPRA DEMITRI FIGURE! ARGH!  I also don't have the CHRISTMAS TRAIN SET! AHHHHH!

So, yeah.  Now I'm going into spiraling depression and it's all my Mommy's fault for LYING TO ME! GRR!

I've also decided that I am going to get that opra figure even if it kills me.  I am also gonna get that train set.  I will only be able to relax once I have gotten those two things and my collection is complete.

EDIT: I JUST DISCOVERED THAT I AM NOT ONLY MISSING ONE, BUT TWO FIGURES! Apparantly I am also missing the Elegant Escort Demitri Figure. T_T NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I'M DOOOOMMMMMEEED!

Just so you all know, these are pics of the figures I need : D Please buy them for me if you see them. 

Opera Figure

Elegant Escort

I feel depressed today... D :

 I feel like crap today.  Seriously.  I'm tired, my stomach hurts, some of my friends are mad at me, and my good friend is being really slow at replying to his e-mail and it's ticking me off!

So, people, what do you suggest I do to ease my pain? 

-Cookie

Pointless Post is Pointless....

Hey everyone who actually reads this thing!  What's up?

Today, I'm in a good mood, I guess.  I don't know why either.  Maybe it's 'cause I just finished dinner and am full.  Or maybe it's 'cause I finally got caught up with Perfect Girl Evolution (Gotta love reverse-harem shoujo manga).  Hm.  I don't know.  I guess I'm just having an all around good day.

Hm.  Was there even a specific reason for me writing this?  I can't remember any more.  Oh well. I noticed that my rainbow colors I use keep changing in every post.  So, yeah, sorry about that.  I can't quite make up my mind about which color combo looks best, so bear with me while I do my experimenting. 

Now I remember the point of this post, but, well, I'm kind of tired and don't really like writing about the awesome party me and my friends had over the weekend, so you'll have to wait till tomorrow to hear about that. 

Gosh, now I feel like just plain rambling about random stuff, which is kind of sad because the original point of this post was not for me to ramble about crap.  OH WELL It's the new point now, I guess.  So, does anyone like listening to Oshare Kei music?  Seriously, I'm like the only person I know IRl who listens to it.  Sad, huh?  I don't know if that makes me unique or just plain weird.  *sighs*  Oh, guess what?!?! I'm going to Dire en Grey's concert for the 3rd time in a month or so!  I'm so excited!  I bet that all you people are jealous, huh? *squeels*

I think I've been rambling for too long.  Well, actually I haven't, but I'm kind of sick of writing in this thing right now, so more next time.

Jya ne!

So, basically, I'm going to miss 4/5 days of school this week. (I think)

Yeah, you read the title.  Right now, I'm pretty sure that I'm going to miss 4/5 days of school this week, which means hell for me.  So now, on top of having to finish all this cosplay stuff I've procrastinated on for six months, I have to catch up on all my school work.  Fun, I know.  Right now my mom is ticked at me because I'm more concerned about the cosplay stuff then I am about my missing schoolwork, but, well, I've spent around $300 on cosplay stuff so far and there's no way that I'm going to let all that money and effort go to waste.  I mean, I know school is important and all, and I'm actually pretty caught up on my work despite what my parents appear to believe, and on a normal scale cosplay and school are pretty even, but, well, I haven't spent $300 on my school stuff... ^_^;;; Gosh, I must sound stupid now.   

La de dum, la de do... since I've been sick I've had a whole lot of spare time.  It's only my body that's sick, not my mind.  So, yeah, it kind of sucks because after having so much time to think I have come up with a whole lot of ideas and plans for various things I want to put into action, but my body doesn't really want to cooperate.   *sighs*  I can't even remember why I'm posting in this... probably because I'm bored and sick and would feel like I haven't acomplished much of anything as far as school is concerned today if I didn't.  Gosh, I hate feeling that way.  Like, when I go to skating I always have to acomplish something, otherwise I feel like I wasted $30 on gas, ice time, and my lessons.  It's the same with when I draw.  If the picture doesn't turn out nicely in my eyes, then I consider it a waste.  Yeah, I'm a perfectionist.  Got a problem with that?  

This is random but does anyone who happens to be reading this know why the heck the clocks on CR are all screwed up right now?!?!?! I got a message like 2 hours ago and instead of saying "message recived at 6:49 p.m." it says "message recieved 23 days ago"  Gah!  

Gosh, I think I've been writing in this thing for too long.  The video I was waiting for to download has downloaded, and I really want to watch it now.

Jya ne

Cookie

Releasing Stress....

I flipping hate being sick.  Seriously.  It sucks. And  Since I haven't been able to talk AT ALL for the past couple of days I've been using this nifty Code Geass Voice Generator. It pisses my parents off, though, because they can't understand Japanese at all and they have a hard time understanding broken Engrish.  XD The best part is that when they tried using it to bug me, they didn't understand the site since it's in japanese-only.  Gosh, I love being the only one in my household who knows it (Even though I'm not very fluent yet).  Anyway, I kind of got off-topic there, but I don't think anyone is going to care since most everyone on here seems to be completely random. 

But, yeah, today I spent around an hour waiting to see the doctor so I could get checked for strep, and the whole time I was about ready to burst into tears while rolling on the ground and hugging my legs.  My throat was burning up, I couldn't flippin breath, and there was some  lady who kept trying to convert me to mormonisum.  Seriously, it was the worst hour ever.  And, to make things worse,  I don't have strep quite yet, so the doctor couldn't give me any perscripstions.  Or, at least, that's what I was told.  So, for the time being, I'm suck with this over-the-counter stuff which really isn't working at all. *sighs*

Hm. In case you can't tell, I'm in a really crappy mood.  It's times like these when I need my friend who listens to all my rants to listen to me and give me advice, but he's freakin on holiday right now. GR!  I mean, he honestly deserves to have a break, but when I don't have someone to rant at I get really angry.  *sighs again*  Now I've gone and confused myself about stuff which I will not talk about here because it is too complicated for anyone by myself to comprehend.... Well, actually, it's not that complicated.  I just don't feel like talking about it here since I'm sure that 90% of the people who may be reading this would have a very negitive reaction to what I'm confused about.  Actually, they probably wouldn't be that mad, they'd just be shocked and think that I have really, really, really, really, really, really.... unique friends.  Hm.  I think I should stop now before I confused myself and others even more.

Good Bye,

Cookie

Oh, I apologize for my bad spelling/grammar in this post.  I'm sick, tired, hungry, and confused and, to tell the truth, using flawless spelling/grammar is really not on my list of top concerns at the moment.

Life's greatest mystery....

After doing a word count of my two previous entries, I discovered that I only typed 477 words!  Scary, I know!  I would just leave it at that, but, for some reason, I can picture Mr. Thompson sitting on his computer at 1:00 a.m. on Sunday night counting all the words in mine and my classmates blogs.  And, so, now, I'm going to talk about everyones favorite subject... stalkers!

Anyway, I've already told some of my good friends about this little "fantasy" of mine, but for those of you who haven't already listened to me talk about this, just sit back and enjoy reading about some of the utterly amazing stuff that goes on in my brilliant mind.

So, for as long as I've been in computer classes, I've been told "Never give out personal information on the internet.  Never post pictures of yourself on the internet.  Never talk to people you don't know on the internet.  Why?  Because if you do any of these things, you might get stalked by a pervert pedophile.   And, after being told this for the first time back in first grade, I thought "What if two stalkers met?!?!"

Seriously, lets say that there's two old guy pedophiles who live in Seattle.  One of them is pretending to be a little girl, and one of them is pretending to be a little boy, and both of them belong to a huge online chat room/message board.  And, one day, they both meet and begin to talk.  After talking for a few days both stalkers decide to meet IRl.  And, so, on the day of the meeting they both arrive at the designated meeting place, only to find that their "New toy" is really another child stalker!  

I mean, wouldn't that be funny?!?! I mean, what would they do if that happened?  Would they be embarrassed, would they try to kill one another, or would they bond over a steaming cup of coffee at a nearby cafe?  If you want, I'd really appreciate hearing your thoughts on this.

Thanks for reading!

Cookie

Introduction

Hey!

Since this is my first "official" blog post, I'm going to go ahead and introduce myself.

My name... doesn't matter.  Everyone calls me Cookie, which is much better than my real name. 

I really enjoy reading and writing.  In fact, I cannot sleep at night without reading at least something right before I go to bed.  It's kind of sad, but true.  And, well, I haven't gone a day without writing a story or poem of some-sort in a very, very, very, long time.  

Along with reading and writing, I also enjoy Japanese media in most of its forms.  Some people think it's weird, and some people think I'm a nerd for this reason alone, but I honestly don't care. I've met a lot of my best friends through this,  and, to me, meeting and making new friends while watching/reading/listening to what I like is much, much, much better then watching/reading/listening to stuff I hate.  

My other hobbies, which I will talk a lot about, are figure skating and viola playing.  I've been a figure skater for about 10 or 11 years now and I like it well enough.  It's helped my self-esteem a lot, and has also helped me get used to doing well under stress and getting up in front of people and performing.  I've been playing the viola for around four years now, and, yeah, I really like it.  It's fun, and I think that I'm pretty good at it.  Of course, I play other instruments but the viola is my primary instrument. 

Anyway, I think that's enough of an introduction.  I don't feel the need to say a whole lot about my personality or anything since everyone who reads this should have a somewhat decent idea of how I act.  

Hm, I guess I should also say that I will be updating this around two-three times a week.  I really like blogging for many different reasons, and I think that this'll help me get rid of some of my random thoughts better then my other blog... ^_^

Thanks for reading!

~Cookie

Blog Post Number One

Hello, everyone!

This is my first blog entry for Honors English. Exciting, I know.

I think that my posts in this blog will be a little different then the ones I post in an older blog of mine, purely because this is for school. And, well, I don't know about you, but I sure don't want my classmates (some of whom I hardly know) to know every little thing that goes on in my head.  I mean, seriously, if I posted the same way in this blog that I do in my other blog I'd probably get in pretty big trouble. ^_^;;

So, for the time being, please bear with me as I get things going on this account.  I promise once things get going this blog will be very interesting, to say the least.